Nino d'Heresie

時間回到我在讀學士後中的時候，同學就有日本人和美國人，學長有一位是英國人。我當R的時候，也遇到從日本和奧地利來的學弟妹，他們都是非常努力、也很辛苦的克服語言和文化障礙，在台灣撐過實習和二階段國考，成為合格的中醫師。但台灣人自己好不容易成為中醫師，卻是想往外跑，想想也是蠻有趣的。（在以前任職的醫院，傷科主任每一屆都在洗腦學弟妹，與其在台灣做賤自己，不如去澳洲當中醫好賺。現在中醫集團已經朝國際化經營，在招人去新加坡、馬來西亞當中醫。） Back in the day when I was a post-baccalaureate Traditional Chinese medicine (TCM) student, among my classmates were Japanese and American, and one of my seniors was British. During my residency training, I also met fellow students from Japan and Austria. They all worked very hard and overcame language and cultural barriers to pass the internship and the second-stage national examination in Taiwan to become qualified Chinese medicine practitioners. It’s quite interesting though, many Taiwanese who have managed to become TCM doctors want to work abroad. (In the hospital where I worked before, the director of the Traumatology department brainwashed intern doctors every year, preaching that “Instead of being cheap in Taiwan, it is better to go to Australia and make a lot of ...

               人類有阻塞性睡眠呼吸中止症 (OSAS)，也就是睡著時，呼吸道發生阻塞或塌陷，造成頻繁的缺氧，而這在犬隻身上也會發生。狗狗版的類似疾病叫作 BOAS（唸起來像「波哇斯」）。人類和狗狗的呼吸中止症，兩者有什麼不同？又有哪些相似呢？ In humans, obstructive sleep apnea syndrome (OSAS) refers to a medical condition in which the airways become blocked or collapse while asleep, causing frequent oxygen desaturation. The canine version of the sleep-related breathing disorders is "BOAS". What is the difference between sleep apnea in humans and dogs? And is there a similarity between them? BOAS是「短顱阻塞性氣道症候群」的英文縮寫，是英國鬥牛犬、法國鬥牛犬、巴哥、查理士王小獵犬、吉娃娃、博美...... 這些短顱犬種好發的阻塞性呼吸疾病。網路上有很多這些狗狗站著打瞌睡、鼾聲如雷的影片，看起來很可愛，但其實狗狗是處在一種痛苦呼吸的狀態。可以說牠們醒著就一直是在費力呼吸。 BOAS is the abbreviation of "Brachycephalic Obstructive Airway Syndrome", which is an obstructive respiratory disease that affects dog breeds such as British bulldogs, French bulldogs, pugs, Cavalier King Charles Spaniels, Chihuahua and Pomeranians. There are shorts and videos trending on the Internet that feature the dogs dozing ...

以前東西壞掉會難過，現在都覺得還好它會解體壞掉，這樣就不會變成存在很久的垃圾。 I used to feel sad when something broke down, but now I feel reassured when I know that it will break down, so that it will not become garbage that lasts for a long time. ∷ ࿏ . . 這樣一想，人體也算是蠻環保的，很容易就壞掉，放著不管也會自行分解，融入環境。雖然很不好保養，會臭、會髒，還會痛，這點很不漂亮，但畢竟就是個肉體，也不能要求太多。 Thinking about it this way, the human body is quite environmental-friendly. It breaks down easily, decomposes and dissolves into the surrounding if left alone. Although it's hard to maintain, smells bad, gets dirty, and hurts, which is very unattractive, we are "mortal" beings after all, you can't ask for too much. ∷ ࿏ . . 前陣子有感而發的跟室友說，我就是活得夠久了，久到已經有過去可以回顧。每一段人生都像上輩子，所以感覺已經過了好幾輩子才來到這裡。記得小孩子的時候好像不會想那麼多，每天就是很認真的過那一天，也沒有什麼過去可以回顧。 A while ago, I felt inspired and told my roommate that I have lived long enough to have a past that I can look back on. The consecutive periods of my life before now seemed to have become past lives, so it feels like several lifetimes have passed befo...

人到底有多麻木，才會一直重複做著自己也不清楚意義何在的行為？ How emotionally numb can humans be that they subscribe to repeating behaviours that they don't even know the meaning of? 十月的某一天，腦袋裡在我半睡半醒時冒出了一個念頭：說不定我早就死了，只是我沒發現。 One day in October, a thought came to my mind when I was half asleep: Maybe I had died a long time ago, but it’s just, I didn't realize it. /  ——只因為我太習慣煩惱這些煩惱，承擔這些責任，承攬別人的期望，反芻那些罪疚，期望我尚未能獲得的人生——這些種種聚合形成一種特殊的慣性，或者說引力，拉著我順從這個身份附帶的一切持續運作。跟地縛靈一樣。跟籠子門開著也不懂得自己走出去的動物一樣。 ——Just because I am too used to worrying about these troubles, taking on these responsibilities, accepting other people's expectations, ruminating on those guilts, and hoping for a life that I have not yet obtained - all these aggregates to form a special kind of inertia, or gravity, that pulls me. It continues to function as I submit to everything that comes with this identity. Same as a stone tape ghost. Same as an animal that doesn't know how to get out even if the cage door is open. /  最近看了《京城怪物 2》，劇中的男主角失去了過去所有記憶，但是...