Gazing the Beyond 凝望的彼方

時間回到我在讀學士後中的時候，同學就有日本人和美國人，學長有一位是英國人。我當R的時候，也遇到從日本和奧地利來的學弟妹，他們都是非常努力、也很辛苦的克服語言和文化障礙，在台灣撐過實習和二階段國考，成為合格的中醫師。但台灣人自己好不容易成為中醫師，卻是想往外跑，想想也是蠻有趣的。（在以前任職的醫院，傷科主任每一屆都在洗腦學弟妹，與其在台灣做賤自己，不如去澳洲當中醫好賺。現在中醫集團已經朝國際化經營，在招人去新加坡、馬來西亞當中醫。）

Back in the day when I was a post-baccalaureate Traditional Chinese medicine (TCM) student, among my classmates were Japanese and American, and one of my seniors was British. During my residency training, I also met fellow students from Japan and Austria. They all worked very hard and overcame language and cultural barriers to pass the internship and the second-stage national examination in Taiwan to become qualified Chinese medicine practitioners. It’s quite interesting though, many Taiwanese who have managed to become TCM doctors want to work abroad. (In the hospital where I worked before, the director of the Traumatology department brainwashed intern doctors every year, preaching that “Instead of being cheap in Taiwan, it is better to go to Australia and make a lot of money as a traditional Chinese medicine practitioner. Now the traditional Chinese medicine (business) group has moved towards international operations and is recruiting people to work as traditional Chinese medicine practitioners in Singapore and Malaysia.)

想說有些人是不是沒去國外短期留學或工作過，才把國外想得那麼美好。雖然台灣人總是吵來吵去，嘴巴很壞，但自己的家園就是有某種，我不知道能叫做什麼，這裡的人和土地基本上至少是接受你的。即使你覺得你是靠自己一個人的努力，不需要其他人，但實際上還是受到這裡的人和土地的關照和接納。這些土地與人對你的友善，都不是理所當然的。一旦到了國外，那種再怎麼努力，人家還是把你當外國人的感覺是很深刻的。

It’s only my guess… maybe some people think that foreign countries are so wonderful because they have never studied or worked abroad even for a short period of time. Although Taiwanese seem to have a talent to bicker over any subject (and quite bad-mouthed), there is something about — the homeland – I don’t know the right word to put it. You know that the people and land here, at least, are accepting of you. (You don’t get the twinge that people around you intentionally or unintentionally judge you or tell you to fuck off.) Even if you feel that you are relying on your own efforts and do not need others, you are still cared for by the people and land here. You shouldn’t take for granted the kindness of the land and people of your homeland. Once you’ve tried working/living abroad, and you will know, it’s a profound feeling that no matter how hard you try, people will treat you as a foreigner.

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