Nino d'Heresie

Path 15, Heh  The intelligence that "light" appears in us.  The influences between Chokmah and Tiphareth, across the Abyss. 我的室友每次作噩夢，都是有人要闖進來、從門或窗戶跑進來、從窗外看裡面、家裡有不認識的人要傷害我們。 她會超激動尖叫很久，直到我成功把她搖醒。 Every time my roommate has nightmares, it is always someone trying to break in, through the door or window, peeking from the window, or intruders trying to hurt us. She would get super agitated and scream until I managed to wake her up by shaking her shoulder. ⵢ 而且我發現就是晚上關燈要睡的時候，把窗簾都拉開，她就會作噩夢。有一陣子就會特別嚴重，有一陣子就還好。其實我喜歡窗簾都拉開的睡，因為這樣我可以看著天空入睡，如果半夜醒來，也有機會看到城市短暫的熄燈時間才透出的星空。但因為這樣室友會作噩夢的機率很高，所以我們一律還是拉上窗簾睡，有時候甚至得把遮光那層也拉上，整個房間就是一片漆黑這樣。 I noticed that she tends to have nightmares when we turn the lights off and let the curtains wide open at night. Occasionally, it just gets worse. To tell the truth, I prefer to keep the curtains open at night, because then I can look at the sky until I fall asleep. And if I wake up in the middle of the night, I can see the starry sky that only reveals for a short...

厭恨是一種非常極端的感覺，與憤怒或沮喪等其他常見的不愉快感覺相比，它幾乎沒有留下任何與人連結或容納同理心的空間。而當一個人放棄連結和同理心時，他的認知和情緒的調適策略（意識層面的抗壓系統）就會減弱。 Hatred is a very extreme feeling that, compared with other often-related unpleasant feelings like anger or frustration, leaves little, if any, room for connectedness or empathy. And when you take connectedness and empathy off the table, you reduce your cognitive and emotional coping options. 如果你因為人類本質上的不完美而厭惡所有人，你可能就不想與任何一個人有任何關係。也許你相信所有人都會傷害他人並摧毀他們周遭的世界，而你無法容忍這種事。 If you are disgusted with everyone, because of the inherent nature of human imperfection, you may want nothing to do with any of them. Perhaps you believe all people are hard-wired to hurt others and destroy the world around them, and you simply have no tolerance for it. 此外，厭惡的情緒不僅需要消耗大量的認知和情感能量，還常常伴隨著交感神經系統的戰鬥或逃跑（或凍結）反應，時間一久，這個人最終可能就會經歷到慢性壓力的一些長期後果，例如全身性發炎。 Furthermore, feeling hatred toward others not only requires a great deal of cognitive and emotional energy, it’s also the feeling that is often coupled with the sympatheti...

一個人普遍的討厭所有人，無論對方的信仰、種族、所屬單位、社會地位或信仰如何，有時被稱為厭世者 (*註) 。雖然厭世不是一種精神障礙，但有時可能是心理健康狀況的徵兆，例如焦慮、憂鬱或反社會人格障礙。 *註：中文口語的「厭世」心情，還不算是 misanthropic。英文字首的 mis- 有很多種意思，像是「壞的」(如：misbehavior 不規矩的行為) 或「錯誤」(如：misunderstand 誤解)，而 misanthropy 的 mis- 是和厭女 misogyny 的「厭」一樣的意思。 mis-(討厭)+anthropo-(人類) = 厭惡人類。 A person who hates all people regardless of creed, race, affiliation, social status, or religion, is sometimes called a misanthrope . While it is not a mental disorder, misanthropy may sometimes be a sign of a mental health condition, such as anxiety, depression, or antisocial personality disorder. 如果你有這種感覺，你可能也會想，如此討厭人是否「正常」。事實上，本來就沒有人會喜歡他們遇到的每一個人。大多數人都能列舉幾位他們不太喜歡的人的名字。然而，有些人會對人或整體環境感到非常的憤怒、受傷或沮喪，到了一種程度，會覺得自己討厭所有人。 If you feel this way, you might also wonder if it is normal to hate people so much. The reality is that no one likes every single person they’ve met. Most people can probably name a few people that they don’t particularly like. However, some people reach a stage where they get so annoyed, hurt, or...

英文 vigilance (警戒) 源自拉丁文 vigil 或 vigilantia，意思是 keep awake (保持醒著 )  ，它是動物 (尤其是被獵食者) 會出現的一種行為或狀態，密切注意著周圍環境有任何潛在威脅，準備隨時做出反應。加上字首 hyper- (超- ) 就成了 hypervigilance (過度警戒)，也就是對周圍環境極度警覺的狀態，會不斷的掃描或探查，以確保安全。其他相關症狀還有：對潛在威脅的關注、驚跳反射增強、瞳孔張大、心率加快、血壓升高、對特定情境的迴避行為。 The word “vigilance” comes from Latin vigil (or vigilantia), meaning ‘keep awake’. Vigilance represents a state or behaviour that allows prey to monitor their surroundings for potential threats. With the prefix hyper-, it becomes "hypervigilance", which refers to a state of extreme alertness and awareness of one's surroundings, characterised by a constant scanning behaviour to keep safe. Other symptoms include fixation on potential threats, increased startle reflex, dilated pupils, higher heart rate, elevated blood pressure, and behavioural avoidance of certain situations. Hypervigilance (過度警戒) 和睡眠醫學裡的一個詞很像：hyperarousal (過度喚醒)，兩者相關但不一樣。Hyperarousal (過度喚醒) 是身體對威脅做好準備的一種方式，它會使人對壓力源做出快速、極端和持久的反應。其他相關症狀還有：蔓延的緊張感、睡眠困難 (睡不著、淺眠、頻繁醒來⋯)...